Thursday, January 21, 2010

You will understand.

Every new beginning, comes from some beginnings end. Every time you kill me, I am born again. Every time you close that door, another door is opened. And every time you say goodbye, a different word is spoken.

Every time you look at me, my back is facing you. And every time you ask to see me, I'll have something else to do. Every time I join your game, you're not playing fair.

And every time I really love you, I pretend that I don't care.

Yes I do.

I miss the touch of your hand in mine. Your love warms me like the morning sun shine. I miss your breath on my ear as we embrace. I miss the softness of your cheek when I touch your face.

I miss the air we exchange when we kiss. Holding you tightly in my arms is what I miss. I close my eyes and I feel your love raining down on me.I open them and I tear when I realize you are not near.

Missing you only brings me one step closer to insanity. When you come back to me, I will come back to reality. Why would you leave me? Never to come back to me. But to who i was, for you were my sanity.


Where do i belong?

Memories so fond and dear. My memory is only clear when you are there. You do not understand my love. Actually not even I do. You are like a drug to me. When you look at me, passion flows through my veins. Soft tender, sweet and pure. Rough, mind blowing and so confusing.

Never to know wheat emotion will hit next. With you there is all, love, hate and passion. Freely flowing, attracting and disengaging. Pushing and pulling on an invisible rope.

Which way we will go know one is know. A mystery that we are living. Minds unclear, a mist that fogs our senses. So until the sun rises where do I belong?

Friday, January 8, 2010

I still shed a tear.

As darkness looms I gaze into the candle light. My heart feels the pain of wanting you with me each night. You came in to my life and brought a calm in my heart. But now it just seems we are always so far apart. The brightness, love and happiness you brought to my life. Has been a source of releasing so much of my strife.

I miss the times you reached for me then pulled me ever so near. I miss the times you used to say "I love you" so softly in my ear. Thinking back on how long it has been. I daily long for the time when you kiss me once again. My body aches to feel your arms holding me tight. And just knowing you are there all through the night.

Realizing we both have our own life struggles and pain. Through these days we must not let our feelings wane. Even though we talk each night and each day. My soul still aches with our being far away. I not only need you but want you with all of my heart. And pray to God for a day when we are no longer so far apart.

I am here for the long haul to see this thing out. And in hopes that you are having no doubt. Just know that I have grown to love you and always will. For there is a place in my heart that only you can fill.

Empty and meaningless.

There's an emptiness in me, that I can't fill. I feel so lonely, like nobody cares. As the days pass, it gets harder and harder, to fill the hole in me. I don't know what I'm missing so much that it has this impact on me. I can't take it anymore! I want this feeling to be gone. It makes me feel very empty and meaningless.

Happy New Year!

If it didn't bring you joy just leave it behind. Let's ring in the New Year with good things in mind. Let every bad memory that brought heartache and pain. And let's turn a new leaf with the smell of new rain. Let's forget past mistakes making amends for this year. Sending you these greetings to bring you hope and cheer. Happy New Year!