Friday, December 25, 2009

I miss you.

I'm honestly fine without you in my life, but I miss you sometimes. I know things never went our way, but I miss you sometimes. The pain you caused and made me feel, it never went away. I sit, think and study our mistakes, and all you ever did was betray. Every apology you made to me will never make it okay. But here I am, still today, writing about the friendship you threw away.

I hope now you know what went to waste, and how it will never be erased. So now I am left to face the regrets you left in your place. I deserved the best you had to give, but I have a better life to live. I cared so much about you, but you were too blind to see. So I will leave you with this line and maybe you will realize.

I'm honestly fine without you in my life, but I miss you sometimes. I know things never went our way, but I miss you sometimes.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

You are everything.

My mom watches me grow. My mom watches me cry. Of course she'll always know, she'll never have to tell me goodbye. My mom will always hug and kiss. My mom will always care. My days she will never miss, because I'm her little teddy bear.

Your arms were always open when i needed hug. Your heart understood when i needed a friend. Your gentle eyes were stern when i need a lesson. Your love has guided me and gave me wings to fly.

My mom is very special. My mom is very kind. My mom always tells me I'm special, she's always on my mind. Happy mother's day. I love you!

Monday, December 21, 2009

A new life.

I have wiped the slate clean, no more reminders from the past. Memories of what I have been. Have vanished at long last. I look forward to my future new. Where all is territory strange. Soon I will be among the few, that plans their life at long range. I see my life laid out at my feet. New friends shall rally at my call. They will be the first I will greet at this my welcoming ball.

Soon all memories will depart of a past left well behind. I will get off to a new start, with the best of mankind.

Pondered all alone.

I sat and pondered all alone, will I ever find a love of my own? A love I can trust, a love that's a must? A love without the pain, will I gain?

Will she hurt me too, just like the others do? Will she cheat and lie or will she hold me high? Will she appreciate what I do or will she laugh and say we're through? Will I ever find Mrs. Right or will all love be a fight?

Will she always make me cry or will she care and ask why? Will she want me, as I want her or will love, she just pretend?

I sat and pondered all alone, will I ever find a love of my own?

Sunday, December 13, 2009

It's hard for me.

I love your laughter and how it makes me smile. You won't be here tomorrow. It's only for awhile. I cherish the way you look. When something makes you glad. Knowing we'll soon part, really makes me sad. I think of all the things we've done. The schemes we used to pull. Sweet memories of yesterday makes my heart feel full.

I pray that each moment will last forever and I memorize it all. Hoping you won't forget me as teardrops start to fall. I hold on to my dreams as I watch you sleep. Soon I'll be far away, sweet dreams, please keep.

A lump in my throat and nothing left to say, good-bye. Laugh while we can. Never let go of those dreams that we plan. Sorry for everything and gonna miss you.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

That I've found.

You're the reason why I smile, sometimes why I cry. Happy tears, of joy, not fear. When you're not around, my smile fades to a frown. With you comes the sunshine, I'm smiling all the time.

Just happy that you're here with those dimples that you wear. Damn. I see you and my heart starts to pound around your finger, you've got me wrapped, wound. Your loving is prime and I mean ALL the time.

So let's get this clear. I see you, and that smile appears. You've met your match, now how does that sound? You've got me going in circles, around and around. I just smile, all the while feeling high. So keep me, hold me near. Then I bet you my smile will reappear.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Ada kalanya kita lupa.

Kesusahan hidup orang lain membuatkan saya lebih mengerti akan erti hidup ini. Baru saya mengerti akan mengapa hidup tidak selalunya senang dan tidak mudah untuk di susuri. Saya mengerti kini segala dugaan hidup punya erti tersendiri, punya maksud dan saya kini mengerti hidup bukan hanya untuk bergembira.

Hidup ini juga sedih dan pelbagai dugaan yang harus kita lalui. Saya sering terlupa akan erti hidup, erti hidup yang sebenar. Dugaan yang saya lalui membuat saya lebih dewasa dan lebih kuat untuk mengharungi masa depan yang masih jauh.

Gelap mahupun cerah itu adalah realitinya. Hidup bukan hanya untuk bergembira.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

I'm scared.

My heart saw this vision of love in a girl. She's now left my head in such a real whirl. I surely must admit that I simply gave in. She's got me going crazy and I just cannot win. I just can't lose her face from out my mind. A vision sweet and cute, she's one of a kind. Oh the joy my heart feels such love for her. She's surely shook me up and gave me a stir.

She only gave me a short sweet simple smile. Yet it sent me soaring high just a brief while. My heart and head are left in fast crazy spin. Thought of loving her running through within.

Whether shot by an arrow charmed by a smile. Either way it's like heaven to my heart a while. I think i'm in love.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

It's true.

I dont know what to say or what to do. I'm falling faster each day over you. If I pretended and acted like I didn't care. Could it be possible that you wouldnt be there. I don't wanna lose you I love you too much. But these feelings get stronger whenever we touch. I'm all confused about the way I feel. Maybe these feelings arent that real.

Perhaps it's a dream and all in my head. The person you are makes me want you instead. Theres only one thing I know thats really true. I can't help but thinking i'm falling inlove with you.

No more tears.

I've been sitting around this life for years. Not enough laughs and too many tears. Trying to figure out where it all went. These wasted years that I have spent. Searching for something to go beyond. Life's a stone skipping across a pond. At the last skip, it hits with a splash. Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.

Pushing and pulling, it's tearing apart. Poking and prodding an underused heart. This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul. Living this life has taken it's toll. In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn. Tumbling down all tattered and worn. Revealing new life, born free of hate, of suffering and sin.

Now my eyes see what has never been told. Striving forth happy, confident and bold. Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly. Into this new life my spirit will send me. Living and laughing, loving it all. I stood myself up and answered the call. The darkness has gone, replaced by the light. I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight.

I've been sitting around this life for years with laughter aplenty and hardly a tear. Now I can see just where it all went. Cherish every moment of this new life I've spent. Good-bye tears!